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Here she comes again; Her heat  rising up in my spine with its kundalini force and wrapping itself around my hips. My old mistress, Anger, whispering secrets in my ear. Bring your fiery hot energy to me. Make your grip tighter between my thighs. I am not scared. Buckle me to my knees screaming some distorted truth I have feared in the past. I know why you came, the mothers birthday reminding me she is no longer here, the teens departure, and oh, yes lovely, the choking down of things I no longer can be allowed to swallow.

I have had this dance with anger most of my life. It has never been so seductive as it is now. I realize that anger comes around for a reason. It is not mere hormones running amuck. It is telling me something. I wait. I ask myself questions. I sit back and soothe myself. When I wake again if my mistress is still here, licking her hot kisses in my ear, I know, she won’t leave until I face the reasons why she came. She has been standing vigil since last Thursday. She is a persistant dominatrix of an emotion. Whipping me with her hot whips of doubt and fear. Blindfolding me into submission of seeing what it is that has brought her forth. How I enjoy this seductive dance; I am fully submitting to its will. There is no more pretend in fighting it.

It is uncomfortable and awkward when you face your anger and submit to your own will. I do this, in the safety of my solitude so that I can understand why it has decided to complicate my world. It came for reasons. I know what they are now. It has loosened its grip on me. I still feel the heat. My mind is de-fogging and the clarity is returning. Anger comes around as a reminder. Don’t fear this demonized mistress, welcome her and allow yourself to hear her message.

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